Saturday, April 15, 2006
I am a person.
I think,
i believe,
i love,
i obey,
i feel
and i experience.
I am more than just a body,
more than just glands,
chemistry,
blood
and bones.
I throb with energy,
thrill to the guggles of a newborn babe,
croon to a familiar lovesong,
cry in the rain
and get goosebumps
when i see an autumn sunset.
I can admire beauty on canvas,
swoon to the sax playing,
delight in holding kittens,
and yearn for foreign travel.
I can fall passionately in love
with the guy of my dreams,
dote on my little cousins,
and yearn for a grandmother's love.
I can desire closeness with friends,
camaraderie with my colleagues
and desire intimacy
with my boyfriend/husband.
I am a human person.
At times im torn between loving and hating.
There are times I feel so much neurotic guilt
i want to scream.
At other times,
joy just overwhelms me.
Anguish and esctacy,
agony and exaltation,
these all seem to be an essential part of me.
Because i am a human person,
I have a self.
It is not a perfect self
but a Fallen self.
But i am nevertheless a self,
the only self i can be.
God doesnt transplant a new self,
but he repairs the one he has already given me.
In some mysterious way,
my self bears God's image.
Contrary to what i deserve,
my wretched self
has been redeemed by amazing grace
and given a special place
in the kingdom of God,
i am a joint heir with Christ.
The self is more than who i am as a person.
The self is me knowing i am a person.
Me being able to make decisions
on who i want to be.
Me haunted by memories of my history,
yet orientated to the future
because of having been redeemed
and forgiven for all my failures.
I am a self
because i can choose to obey God
and decide what course my life will take.
My self is alert to myself,
sensitive to the feelings of others,
and aware of its presence in the world.
My self is a given.
I cannot deny that it exists.
God calls me to relate to myself,
to be aware of what i am doing,
feeling
and thinking.
I have an opinion about myself,
and a desire to see myself grow as a person.
It is my self
not my mind,
brain,
glands,
or any organ in my body
that responds to God's call.
It is the meeting of my self with God that leads to salvation.
quoted and paraphrased by me,
from Dr Archibald D.Hart's Me Myself and I
posted by: emily @ 9:48 pm
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